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25 transmasc introvert overthinker welshie

writer ravenclaw demigod metalhead

Shw mae I am ̶G̶e̶r̶b̶i̶l̶-̶l̶o̶v̶e̶r̶ LotusPhotos, LotusLiterature and LotusDrawn

I am a 25-year-old half-Welsh half-English gay trans guy currently trying and failing to adult by getting a proper job and moving out... I spend most of my time writing, or editing my writing, or procrastinating editing my writing. I mostly write smutty m/m fanfiction, and most of that for my all-time OTP: One and Three from Dark Matter Dark Matter in general is pretty much a permanent obsession of mine And I will never forgive Syfy for cancelling it on the most horrendous cliffhanger in the universe My way of coping is to spend all my time writing my own content because I refuse to accept that this show is over. I do have a tonne of my own book ideas too, but they usually take a backseat to fanfic because, well... it's just more fun Trying to help with that by allowing myself to write smutty gay stuff in my actual books, too ().

I'm generally a big sci-fi fantasy nerd, both in TV and books. I also, of course, love m/m romance. Though I don't read as much as I should anymore I'm constantly adding to my to-read and to-watch lists, then going back and rewatching my comfort shows instead, and stacking up books on my bookshelves but never actually picking any of them up to read. Same goes for fanfic. You'll usually find me with dozens, if not hundreds, of AO3 tabs open with fic I want to come back to... I've also been getting into anime and manga recently, and it's a similar story there. Why am I like this

Other things about me... I'm massively into metalcore and hardcore music I sometimes do a bit of gaming, either PC or switch, though that's another thing where I end up just collecting games and rarely get round to actually playing them... I also like photography and art, playing guitar and singing, and walking in pretty places. I'm a renowned grammar nazi, a failed astrophysicist, and an ex-Minister-for-Magic of the Sussex University Harry Potter Society

In terms of the future, I hope to one day finish my books and get them published (maybe self-publish if I can figure out how to do that). In the meantime, I'm hoping to be a book editor (if I can ever get an interview...). I also want to move back to Brighton because it's so lovely down there

In March 2021, I started having some thoughts and feelings that didn't really align with my identity as female. Or, more specifically, I started to realise that it wasn't normal as a 'straight girl' to hate the girl parts of your body as much as I hated mine, or to feel so uncomfortable with the idea of being a girl, particularly when it came to sex. This really clicked when I started fantasising about having male parts instead... But, because I still didn't think I felt like a guy, I didn't think I could be trans. Fast forward to February 2022. I was on Facebook and randomly came across the term 'transmasc'. And that just instantly felt like me I identified as transmasc they/them for a while. Then, in mid August, I got my hair cut. And it was almost like that... unlocked something. Now that I can look in the mirror and see a guy, I've realised how much I want other people to see me that way. So I've started going by he/him and male terms. It still feels kind of weird, but then so does everything. So I might as well go for the ones that make me happy I also 100% like guys and I'm so happy I can finally call myself gay I am the biggest gay boy around 🌈

I'm not on DA much these days, as I tend to be more on Instagram/ Twitter/Reddit etc, but I pop on occasionally to update stuff or make the odd journal

~ My Instagram accounts ~

Photography: https://www.instagram.com/uncarysmatic/

Trans: https://www.instagram.com/caiwannaboy/

Art: https://www.instagram.com/uncarysmatic.art/

Gerbils: https://www.instagram.com/gerbilsofthrones/

Feel free to follow me over there

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